When I started meditating, I was filled with anxieties, filled with fears. Kind of depression and anger. I took this anger out on my first wife and about two weeks of meditation she comes to me and she says, "what's going on?" And I was quiet for a moment because it could have been any number of things she might have been referring to, but I finally said what do you mean? And she said this anger, where did it go?" And I did not even realize that it lifted.
These negative things like anger, depression, and sorrow they are beautiful things in the story, but they are like poison to the filmmaker. Poison to painter, poison to creativity. They are like vise grip. If you are super depressed you can hardly get out of bed, let alone think ideas, have that creativity flowing, so it is like "money in the bank" to get that beautiful consciousness growing which is flowing creativity, the ability to catch ideas at a deeper level.
Intuition grew, this field is a field of pure knowingness. You dive in there, you sort of just know how to go, you know how to solve solutions. It's like an ocean of solutions and you can just feel this thing growing. But the ultimate thing for me is that the enjoyment of the doing, the enjoyment of life grows, huge! I love making films now more than ever before